I did writing before- tons of them. From fan fictions, to poems, haiku, essays, heck I even did debate briefs!
Now that I wanted all the words to come out and take form, it’s not happening.
It got me thinking, “Am I lacking in the head?” “Do I have a hole in my brain?” “Am I not creative enough?”
I have these marvelous thoughts about people interacting and things fully alive with sounds and emotions but everytime that I start my engine to write, it doesn’t spark. It feels like my head is just regurgitating thoughts that seem so beautiful but doesn’t stand alone on its own. It’s such a waste.
You know I’ve been here for years and I whenever I try to get back on the game of blogging I just couldn’t find the reason I am here for. I keep my thoughts so private the only audience I have is myself. Yet most of the times, I complain why nobody seems to get what I am saying. Maybe I need more adjectives in my vocabulary to deliver my message, but the thing that keeps me lull is, “What message would I want to send?” It seems like I am overthinking the free thoughts that come into my head and they mash up inside my head like a wild tornado. I have to catch every word, every thought and a sense of coherence with massive effort.
“The only antidote to the unnerving effects of such incoherence is integrity. People and organizations with integrity are wholly themselves. No aspect of self stands different or apart. At their center is clarity, not conflict. When they go inside to find themselves, there is only one self there.”
― Margaret Wheatley
Why do I get the surge of everything right before going to bed?
I get all these crazy ideas for my creative writing yet it’s half past eleven and I need a full night’s sleep..
I get these fancy emotions that creeps ON my skin like some liquid metal..
Also, I get these dubious thoughts about how I should do everything now just to feel accomplished.
Can these things come during the unused time of my life where I shouldn’t be preparing for a night’s sleep?
It’s high time that I let go.
Let go of these unscribbled words before they pop out like bubbles;
Let go of these supressed talent, untravelled universe within me;
Let go of myself, to become a biggrr peephole into this world;
Maybe it’s time to shine.
I HAVE BEEN THERE COUNTLESS TIMES
“What can make my life easier?” “How can I hack my way in studying this material?” “How can I spend less time in doing this?” “IS THERE A WAY THAT I CAN SKIP THROUGH SOME THINGS TO GET THIS DONE?”
As a result, I spend hours and hours on internet articles and blog posts about “life hacking” that instead of spending *that time frame* on actually working on my goals for the day, I am “thoughtfully” browsing the internet for random articles.
As Youtube Icon FightMediocrity has said, “It’s like telling your engineer to not worry about the foundation of the building and ask him WHERE CAN WE FIND THE MAGIC BRICKS THAT WILL FLOAT IN THE AIR?”
Everything requires a PROCEDURE. It takes time to do something. The more complicated, the more exquisite the outcome you expect something to be, the LONGER the time it SHALL require to accomplish it. Instill that in your mind next time you ATTEMPT to find a “hack” to make things simpler for your lazy ass.
I’ve always felt a partiular jealousy when other provinces in CALABARZON are getting featured and Rizal isn’t one of them. I think Rizal Province has sooo much undervalued potential unlike its nearby provinces. But I would say that these two places near Manila are one of best places to be if you just want to chill and have a nature trip. Perfect for this upcoming long weekend!
The Two Places Near Manila that will satisfy your wanderlust
Today, I learned that Jesus was an INFJ and so am I. And Adolf Hitler. #MyersBriggs #PersonalityTypes #Psychology